Indeed I do. Guides and Angels are just two of the many beings that inhabit a different 'dimention' (if you will) than humans.
Some of us are aware of them and can speak with them, some of us have not a clue and while the guidance and protection is there- they consider it luck or coincidence.
Either way- they are here, they are there, they are everywhere.
I know I have guides, but I am not one who really speaks to them. I am more of the whole big picture/Univerese types. I would say that some of the information given to my is give with a guides help, but not always.

….I wish I were
I do not know what this will end up sounding like.
It may be a celebration of sorts, it might be a rant.
Probably a little of both.

I know what my passion is, I feel that I know what my mission is and the two go hand in hand.

All my life I have had a love of the Moon. The sleepless nights as a child had me staring out the window at the starry night sky....on these nights I would go places.
I wish that I knew about the technical aspects of these things when these things where happening. Now that I know the technical, I am no longer traveling as I did as a child.
It faded away as a teen. Not due to lack of interest, for my interest in the mystical never waned, just got stronger. Perhaps, it was just the typical teenage hormonal derailment and perhaps the lack of knowing.
Much time had passed from the last night I knowingly traveled to when I learned what it was and had the knowing. With that time, something was lost.
Regardless, if the travels of my childhood where to happen as an adult, I would be drawn to it would I not?
I sometimes wonder and I would say dabble in attempts.
As a child and going on these journeys and being shown the things I was shown, as I got older and wiser to the world of "new-age" (such a misnomer!) I realized that my daydream fantasies (not the nightly journeys) of talking to ghosts, creating magic spells, and reading from a crystal ball where not far from what I would become, or rather want to become.
I say 'want to become' because I work so hard at it, to get myself out there to help others with the skills and talents that I have developed and it is such a struggle.
I am not trying to make a career out of it in the sense that I want it to be my 'job'.
However, I want to do more, and I would be lying if I said that I want to do it all for free.
I see nothing wrong with an exchange of things of value, tangible and non-tangible.
Currently I do more for free than I do for a fee.
Yes, I would like to make more than I am right now, but it is not about the money, yet...due to current economics, the extra dough certainly would be nice.

So, I ponder, what am I doing wrong? Why is this such a struggle? With so many people reawakening in these times, how come I do not have people I can help coming out of the woodwork?

I have utilized the www. world as best as I can.
I watch a forum be birthed by another and watched it grow and with that, I figured I could also do the same.
So I did, it's a baby still, but growth is minimal and all the while I feed it information, nurture it, it's my baby right now.
I feel like I am just fishing and nothing is biting. Throw my line in and just sit, reel in a bit now and then...bring it in check the bate, cast out again.....sit and wait and my line drifts.

I think, maybe I am not using the right avenue, or venue, or medium?
I am a bit scattered at the moment, sticking my fingers into just about every cake that I can - see which one tastes the best and go for that one.

I have my website, I have my forum, I have a partner in a book project, and a book project of my own (2 actually) and I have my art. I have my job so I can pay the bills, but if some one paid them for me, I would devote that time to these passions and focus on the one that I am supposed to.
However, the problem is the SUPPOSED TO part.
What am I to do? I know what I am to do- but how do I get to where I can be doing it?
What gives?
Yes, Universe, I am talking to you.
I have been asking this for a while and I have not a clue.
Maybe I am blind to what it is and I am not seeing that I am already doing it, but man, I feel like I am wearing cement slippers.
Maybe I am not being patient, maybe I am not completely ready.
I have what I have and that is good to go, any thing beyond that just adds to the package. I become wiser with experience.

I am off to find answers to my questions once again.

I have not the inventory for holding a sale so I'm helping out my team members-
I can tell you, there is some really creative and amazing things being made by my team members.
Many delightful handcrafted goods can be found in the members of the Pagan team.
Items like clothing, jewelery, candles, oils, yummy tasty goods, knitted hats and scarves, handbags, dolls and other original art. The kinds of items are amazing.
Perfect for the person 'who has everything'

Small issue of mine....
All across the web, I find that many are saying that the Mayan calendar ends on Winter Solstice at exactly 11:11am (some sites say pm) and/or universal time.
While the solstice does occure on the day that the Mayan calender ends, I would like to see the documentation for the actual time set at 11:11. They all say it, but none show where this information came from. The calendar? astrological charts? What? Where?
Now it is not the Solstice that brings the end to the Mayan Calendar.
It is the position of the Sun in the eliptic, a placement within the Milky Way, what the Mayan's called the Sacred Tree.

I have studied Astrology for a very long time, I have also had a love for the ancient cultures. My first introduction the the Mayan calendar came out of a book my mother had about Atlantis when I was about 8 or 9 (30 years ago that was).

The first time I saw the 11:11 referance to the Mayan calendar, of course I had to investigate it. I've looked at an ephemeris, I've produced many a chart. None have given me the 11:11 number that so many claim it to be, close, but no banana.
What I have found is this:
Ephemeris-

Fri 12-21 ST 5:59:52 UT 00:00:00 SUN 29°31'30 Sag. 
Sat 12-22  ST 6:3:49 UT 00:00:00 SUN   0°32'36 Cap.

11:11pm GMT (23:11 UT) the Sun is within the 1st degree of Capricorn. So that takes us back a bit in time for when it is true 00deg.00min.00sec Capricorn.
At 11:11 am GMT/UT the Sun is still in Sag. it is not until 11:12 that the Sun moves into Cap. bring the moment of Solstice. Some sources will even put the exact moment at 11:14.

Now one could say, "Close enough! that's splitting hairs"
to that I say, with Spirit, with the Universe....everything IS about exactness, there is no 'close enough' . Study Sacred Geometry and you will see what I mean.
My other issue with this is that the Mayans where far from Greenwich. So thier observations of the Heavens, and the time that it is in their location would not be 11:11.

I suppose that I have always been on this spiritual path. Be it in this lifetime or a past, if there is such a thing. I believe that there is and I am aware of a few of those possible lifetimes.
I did not have to go to church or learn the bible as a child. I was free to ponder life's great mysteries in my own way.
Just about everything I 'discovered' or was 'shown' as a child was later reintroduced in adulthood through books and such.
An expample of that was when I watched the movie, 'What the Bleep". The movie for me  was not a revelation but a confirmation.

Naomi Wolf gives and interview on October 4th about where the US and it's citizens are headed if the people of the country do not take action.
She has found a way for the people to take back the country, but it is important to act now.
The government is rouge and a batallion is here at home to police us.
Watch the interview, follow up by doing your own investigating and check out the website she mentions

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XgkeTanCGI
If we want to uphold the Constitution and Bill of Rights, we have to make our presence known.
Spread this to every one you know- I have. Spread it like wild fire.
Naomi even says- get this video out there to the masses.

Aside from mama and dada.....

hussat

meant 'what's that?'

I guess I was quite the inquisitive one, wanting to know everthing.....still that way today.
Imagine that.

My love of art and being creative is partly responsible for my version of the Moon card done in watercolor paint.

 

Description

As the Moon does glow
one side is not ever seen
oh her hidden face

The full Moon illuminates over an island isolated in the middle of the ocean... or is it an island at all? Looking closer one might see something other than an island. It looks like…a Dragon. Is this just a natural oddity or has some 'shape-shifting’ taken place? {I'm suddenly reminded of werewolves and the transformation that takes place under a full Moon} It appears that the dragon dreams peacefully, sleeping in an emotional waterbed. With the Moon comes dreams and the subconscious speaking through illusions. Perhaps the Dragon wishes to meditate on what has been floating around in her mind. Or has she created the island to hide herself from those who would do her wrong? She knows that in this form she can rest safely. And what of her enemies? They think they are crazy for never noticing the island before and are puzzled by her disappearance. In Astrology the Moon rules the sign Cancer, the Crab. In tarot the Moon is associated with Pisces. A pair of fish tied together and swimming in opposite directions represents Pisces. The ruling planet of Pisces is Neptune, King of the Sea, yet it is the Moon that controls the ocean's tide. The Moon has a duality about her as well. The speed of rotation and orbit of the Moon is synchronized perfectly so all we will ever see is the one face. Her other face is known as the dark side of the Moon, a side of her we shall never see from our Earthly vantagepoint. To call this face the dark side is misleading the Sun does shine upon the 'dark side' during the waxing and waning phases. With the Moon we must be aware of the natural cycles in life, around us and within us and that there is a dark and light side to everything and not everything is what is seems to be.

Card Meaning

Dreams, subconscious, illusion and that which is hidden. Cycles and phases. Intuition and psychic abilities. Reflection and introspection. Emotions.. Feeling betrayed disorientation, Bewilderment and lunacy. Pisces, and feminine qualities.

When in highschool, I lived in a house with a ghost.
My first encounter with him was when we first moved into the house. I got settled into bed and after a short bit, I started to get the feeling that I was being watched, I got the feeling that someone was standing over me. It freaked me out a little bit, but I'm not typically one to be afraid of these sort of things since I believed in them. Yet, first time encounters are always a bit overwhelming.
My nerves where a little rattled and found it hard to even attempt sleep. The feeling was not going away so I started to talk to him. Somehow I knew it was a 'him'. I told him that I was not here to take over his space, that I would not disrespect him and that I was able to coexist, I told him that I aknowledged his presence and that though I was a little shaken by this encounter that over all I was not fearful, but at this moment I wanted to go to sleep and his presence was distracting and making it hard for me to sleep. It took about 3 minutes before he left me alone.

Later on, months later, I saw him sitting on the couch. I caught him there from the corner of my eye. I was on my way from the bathroom to the kitchen, passing the entry to the living room, there he was. I turned to look straight and saw nothing. So I walked & faced forward as I had before and saw him again. It did not matter, going out or coming in. I thought maybe my imagination was playing with me, or possibly something in the background was giving the impression of someone sitting on the couch. So I looked and studied the 'view' NOPE, nothing could have tricked my eyes. I sort of brushed it off, not sure of what I saw, but speculated it could be the ghost. I never told my mom or dad about it even though she had mentioned something a while back about the house having 'funny stuff' going on. A while later, my mom saw him in this very same manner. I was in the kitchen and watched her pace back and forth just as I had. I knew what she was doing, but I asked anyway. She told me that out of the corner of her eye, she could see someone sitting on the couch. That is when I told her about it happening to me.
This ghost also regularly opened a door that was locked with a deadbolt & key. The door had no doorknob, so this was the only way the door closed and thus, there could be NO WAY for the door to 'slip' open. My dad always blamed my mom and I for leaving the door open when we would put stuff in the room for storage. Of course we would say that we where sure that we had shut it. This was something that went on for months. There was one week when I went to stay with a friend who live a few hours East for a few days (I did not drive, I rode the bus to her house) and my mom was off on a business trip in another state. My dad came home one night and shut the door, as by now, he was used to it. He did not think much of it at that moment. He then came home the next night, and the door had been opened again. He stopped blaming us after that.
That, among other things, motivated him to find out more about the old owner of the house. The house was fairly new but how it was built was not in the norm. The door that was always found opened went into an anti-room where in that room was another 'door' more like a ships door with a big steering wheel lock thing. This was a vault! And of course we stored things in it too.
What my dad found out was that the guy who had the house built had a gun collection and it was in the vault that he kept all his guns. So then it all made sense. The house was this man's dream house and he was always checking the vault, probably looking and wondering what happened to his collection.

New beginnings start when you say they start
New beginnings come with everyday and every hour
New beginnings are full of power and potential

New beginnings can always use a bit of guidance
Guidance from the messages around us all the time
Guidance from others,family, friends & strangers
Guidance from deep within our Soul & Spirit

New beginnings need to have faith
Faith in ourselves
Faith in a life with no worries
Faith in the Universe

New beginnings brings about knowledge and wisdom

We are our Best guide to One and All and Ourselves
We all are empowered by the decision to change the way we live our lives
and the way life influences how we live

When we share we heal
when we heal we experience
with experience comes wisdom
with wisdom comes understanding
with understanding comes compassion